woa...haven't been here in awhile...

football game got rained out. so i had the night to be productive on homework. so...of course i veg out on the couch and watched tv. duh.

i finally snapped. (not just my sanity) But, i somehow got roped into joining Robotics.
so, yeah...this will be interesting...

i skipped two training sessions and never called my manager. whoops. well, actually, I did. kind of. they are probably gonna fire me and...i don't care. idk, it's weird.

my parents have decided i am heartless person. pth to them. seems they don't think i show enough emotion or sympathy or some crap along those lines. w/e.

and now...back to watching Alias...good night all...

why me? i only meant to help...but nothing ever could be easy...

so glad the SATs are over
hope i did well enough that i dont have to take them over again
it was hell
not b/c it was hard
but b/c it was so long and just plain annoying

pi night was fun
he wont stop bugging me about who likes who
its amusing
0=)

during wind ensemble yesterday mr. mark let us hear next years mb show
the music is wicked cool
but eric wont be writting our drill anymore
some other guy (Brett? maybe, dont remember)
but he'll be designing drill on the computer
so it'll be interesting
i've heard we're going to some competition in Baltimore, MA
true? false?
i hope, that would be fun

how do you stop the inevitable...?

only 2 more weeks left...which seems like a hell of a long time right now...
what really sucks is that progress reports come out Dec. 17
i am doing lovely in all of my classes except math and bio
and this tuesday i have a chance to bring my grade up in those classes b/c i have a test in both
oh joy. no pressure though... =p

does it make me a bad person if someone related to me is ruining their life and I don't care that much? idk...i can't really help it. this person and I never got along and have never been close; so even though we are related I barely know them. argh. w/e.

ahhhh! I should have started reading all my required school books in like july...but nooooo...I had to wait till the middle of August. *sigh* I'll never learn. For lit I have to read two books and three for biology. So that's only five total... =( At least I finished my two lit books (Jane Eyre & An American Childhood) and now onto bio...Of course they didn't have the books in the library so I had to go to Barnes & Nobles and buy them. Luckily, I had a $25 gift card so it didn't cost that much. When I had to choose the books (out of two books I had to choose only one) I just choose the one that was smaller/thinner. hehe. They better be easy to read and interesting. =p
grrrrr...school hasn't even started yet and i've got tons to do and already falling behind...

4-H fair this week! It's fun to walk around and look at everything.

Mini-band camp next week and then regular camp the week after. whee! marching band is starting again soon! =) Band camp is kinda rough (depends on the weather) but it's still lots of fun. Plus, I get to see my friends.

=(
Lately I have been getting depressed really easily. I know it's summer time. And summer is for having fun, right? Well not in my life. It seems that no matter how hard I try @ things everything goes wrong and I just end up making things worse.
Plus, my family gets annoyed at me really fast for some reason. I try to avoid them and stay on their good side, but I never works. And I am getting sick and tired of trying so hard and nothing ever working out.
Then my dad is always breaking his promises. At first I was like "oh well. He just forgot once", but now he is always telling me I can do stuff and giving me permission...then @ the last second he changes his mind and says that he never said I could do that certain thing.
::sigh::
It's really fustrating and I don't know what to do about it. ^.~

Whee! I came in 3rd in my first electric tournament on sunday. So I got a shiny metal. Yes, that was the highlight of my weekend. =) The only negative thing that occured was getting this cut on my leg, which bled all over, and it's still sore today. Oh well, I can live with that.

ahhh! I am taking so many hard classes next year! My schedule next year is up to like 2 AP and 5 Honors courses. The weird thing I wasn't to tell my counsler to sign me up for AP Lit and I was already in. Freaky...
*sigh* If I commite suicide @ some point u'll all know why..... =p

HP3 comes out in like 2 weeks!!

About 10 school days till finals start....I am gonna die.....

My dad was talking to the president of the Band Parents Organization, Mr. Monoco, after the concert tonight. He said that so far about 135 players have signed up, which means that we get to be a group 6 next year! whee! Or @ least that is wat he said. But the problem is since the band is much larger, mr. mark wants to hire more ppl to help out. So the band parents have to sort out that problem.
whee! we get 2 go 2 Florida in the fall! that should b so much fun. plus, it's something to look forward 2 besides school starting again.....

The other week my blade snapped during fencing. So I had to call up Blue Gauntlet and order another one. It came in this weird cylinder package that took me about 20 minutes to open up. Then I had to figure out how to take the snapped blade off my foil and put the new one on, which also took awhile. Oh well, @ least it's done now. Lessons on friday were okay. I feel like I am not improving @ all and that feeling really annoys me. Emily and I walked to the park afterwards and met up w/ melissa, eliz, allison, dan and eric. On the way there some car honked at Em and I, and I am guessing it was b/c i was still wearing my fencing outfit. lol, opps. I must have looked kinda fun, but who cares. Electric I came in 2nd, which made my day. =)
Saturday--> I helped out @ the Spring Carnival that the Habitat for Humanity club was holding @ the new cafe @ BRHS. It was something to do, instead of being totally bored all day. Eliz and I worked the stand where kids painted these flowers pots and then they got to plant flowers in them. Em was right next to us and she was making paper flowers. I ended up painting one of the pots for my mom since i didn't have a mothers day gift to her. hehe.
Sunday--> Church was okay. I play my clarinet in this Folk Group that plays during mass, which is cool and better than sitting in church being bored the whole time. Shay [a freshman who plays trumpet] came. He said that Mr. Mark may make him play mellaphone in marching band, but he doesn't want to. My advice was to just say no, but knowing Mr. Mark...lol...that can be difficult...
ahhh! tomorrow is monday already...i still have to write 3 more damned pages for history and i am running out of things to say...plus, portfolios are due this week [or at least for my class]...

Should I or should I not take AP Literature my junior year? B/c my parents really want me 2 try it and see how I do, but it looks really hard and....I have a other hard classes I have to worry about...*sigh* School is confusing. Why not just not have it nemore then there wouldn't b any stress.

I finally got the letters today saying weather or not I got into certain classes for next year.
I made PreCalc Honors, which I am not taking next year ne way b/c I have other harder classes to worry about and concentrate more on. The weird thing I also made AP English when I only applied for honors. I am not gonna take it though. I'll just stick to honors b/c I don't think I am ready for AP. *snif* I didn't make history though, which is the one i really wanted. But it makes no sense. I almost failed Lit last year & I make AP, but I get straight A's in History and don't even make honors....Am I missing something? blah. I think I'll go talk to my counsler and head of the SS department tomorrow. Life can't be easy.....

I went to the LSC today! Fun, except my sister met up w/ 1 of her friends and listening to them laugh is enough to drive ne1 crazy. *sigh* I love IMAX shows! They are so cool. Plus, my mom let us go c the one w/ dolphins. So that made my day right there.

ahhh! it's wednesday. vacation is going by 2 fast & i still have all this homework piling up, which i will have to tackle at some point. =( oh well. i'll worry about that later. nothing is actually due till friday so i'll work on stuff thursday night.

I came in 3rd overall today, which isn't bad, but not the best either. Christine, Dan, Emily, Elizabeth, & Dave came over 2 fence and it was fun. I got to work on my nonexistent fencing skills and see all my friends. =)

It's finally Spring Break! Thank God...I wasn't sure how much more school I could take...I have to read Catcher in the Rye [take notes] & do some Wild West brochure for History, but other than that I have no hmw.

Waaaaa.... I borrowed a Bass Clarinet to practice over break & there is no mouth piece w/ it. It figures...now I have to go buy one or wait till School starts again. *sigh* Why me?